The Grief Bug

Is my mom looking down at me from Heaven? Honestly, I'd like to hope not. I don't want her to see me in my sadness. I'd like to think that Heaven is a happy place. How can she be happy if she sees that I'm missing her? "The Bible doesn’t specifically say that people in heaven cannot look down on us, so we can’t be dogmatic. However, it is unlikely that they can. People in heaven are likely preoccupied with other things such as worshipping God and enjoying the glories of heaven." (Source: Can people in heaven look down and see us?)
Josh and I finally bought a house. The circumstances surrounding the process were very complex. Our plans were to wait a couple years. But our living situation was, for lack of better words, unsafe. By the grace of God, he opened up the doors for us and we literally had a house fall into our laps. While our reasons for moving don't matter, it should be a happy time in my life. Other than our children being born, this is one of the biggest joys of Josh's and my life. Yet, I want so bad to tell my mom about it and be happy with me. Let's just say that the grief bug finally hit and I really miss her.
I look at pictures and videos of her, but it doesn't even come close to having her here in person. I just want my mommy. My soul finds peace in the fact that I will one day see my mom again. But, it is also sad for the length of time it will take to see her again. Grief is a funny thing! 

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